The End of the "Fat Bastard"

This is the end of the "Fat Bastard" and the beginning of my Lenten journey in the form of a cleansing fast. Ever seen the movie "Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead", yup, that's what I'm going to do for the next fourty days. I plan to eat no solid food and to only drink juice from fruits and vegetables. Yeah, I know, it sounds crazy but watch the movie and see if you still don't think it makes sense.

"Who is the fat bastard?", you ask, well, the Fat Bastard is me. Now to clarify, I am not a bastard by the truest definition of the word, but I am fat and for the most part have always been big. I suppose the "Fat Bastard" has been my alter-ego, my way of dealing with pain and rejection during my life. I've always enjoyed making people laugh and being the "Fat Bastard" has allowed me to do that. I've used him as my shield, my cover, my wall, to keep people out. 

So, for those of you who may read this and not know me, I should probably describe the "Fat Bastard" so that you can really know what I'm talking about. The "Fat Bastard" has been my very smart assed persona for quite some time. He was my crutch to deal with hardship. Growing up poor, I didn't always have the stylish clothes, the popular shoes, or the coolest toys. Being the poor kid usually means you become the object for more popular bullies that love to rub your lack material wealth in your face with repeated verbal and sometimes physical abuse. I used the whit to deal with these situations as a child. I wasn't really fat then, but after getting out of school and finding my passion of digital design, my lack of exercise began to take the form of fat. This fat was a heavier burden than just weight. As I became older, I started using food to help deal with the aftermath of the depression that was being hidden by my whit. These two pieces came together to form the "Fat Bastared". He allowed me to not care what others think and to make fun of myself in order to make others laugh. He has been my hiding place.

I grew to love the "Fat Bastard" and even began to love being fat. I loved it so much, that I reached a nice ROUND 350 pounds. Even at 350 pounds, I was never really uncomfortable being fat. It was part of me, it was my friend, it was the "Fat Bastard". So what made me change my mind? Well quite simply it was my muse, my love, and my own personal Saint — my wife, who got me to start changing my course and to start down the path I am on now. It's a path to put an end to the "Fat bastard". She started Weight Watchers and when I saw her hit the 60 pound weight loss mark, I decided I better try to catch up.

So what have I done so far? Well, I've been using weight watchers for almost 2 years now and have lost right around 93 pounds. After loosing 60 pounds I was able to start taking Tae Kwon Do classes, which has been a life long dream. I am also now hitting the gym for an hour every morning. In the search for natural supplements to help in my exercise I ran across a few documentaries that talked about the positive benefits of juicing and since Lent is coming up and I hadn't been able to figure out what to do, "I thought what the heck, let's give it a shot!" So here I am ready to start. I'll try to post everyday, but we'll see what happens. I may even try to do a few videos, but we'll have to see what happens.

So, here we go. Time to say good bye to the "Fat Bastard"...